Lunch

I just fried one small organic zucchini, Applegate Naturals deli chicken, & olive slices in Kerrygold butter.  Then I added in two whisked eggs and scrambled everything up.  It's delicious!

I need to get more healthy fats into my diet. . . I think I'm relying a bit too much on protein and not getting quite enough good fats.  So, I'm going to make a salad dressing with olive oil (I'm going for something creamy/ranch like) and find some one to get 1-2 TBS coconut oil in every day.  I added a pat of Kerrygold butter to my steak last night. . . YUM-O.  How did I live so long without butter on my steak? (Yes, I am eating TONS of veggies every day and drinking at least 72 ounces of water.)

I'm not a big avocado fan, but I'm also going to try and find ways to sneak it into my diet. . . I know the fat is really good for you!  My kids devour it. . .

I've decided that my prize for 20lbs lost will be a new pair of Nike athletic shoes (which every ones I want!).   I'm wearing mine out (which is very obvious at the gym every morning) and I know the value of quality shoes.  My former spouse works for Nike so it's really hard for me to pay retail as I'm used to the employee store or even *gasp* free samples!  This is my new world, so I'll suck it up as my incentive for losing weight and sticking to my 5am workout routine!

Curves- I definitely recommend this work out program to any female who doesn't already work out at least three times a week.  The circuit is great. . . you know exactly what to do for how long and by the end, you've covered every major muscle group.  I went to a full on fitness center once upon a time. . . I even had several personal training sessions.  I hated the mirrors on every wall and all the bodies in almost too good of shape.  I felt out of place.  At Curves, I don't have these issues and I also don't worry about not knowing what I should be doing.  In a couple more months, I may check out the Crossfit here and see if that will fit into my world, but I know I'm not physically or mentally ready to yet.

Easter and Weight. . .

I cheated over Easter weekend.  (Who didn't, right?).  That said, my weight stayed steady so I'm not beating myself up (besides, what would be the point?).

I had a sugar shop mocha, but had no problem avoiding them today.  I guess the habit really is broken.   I had two small pieces of candy from inside the kids plastic eggs and a serving of cooked chocolate pudding with whip cream (I know). 

And I was SICK.  My body made a quick adjustment to this almost no grains/low carb world and those sugar filled treats made me feel horrid.  I won't be doing that again!

I didn't eat enough veggies or drink enough water today. . . funny since I was so incredibly thirsty over the weekend (probably because of my cheat foods).

Sunday night, I took the kids to the play and pizza place where they have gluten free pizza.  The girls loved their special treat, I was nauseated with one slice (and the slices are probably 1/3 of a normal pizza slice!).  I consider this a major improvement!  I don't want to eat garbage food and I like that my body is telling me not to.

I definitely have more energy, but am getting a mid afternoon slump following any sugar.  Tomorrow I am going to try my morning coffee with pure cream and stevia (I'm still using some coffee mate).  I'm hoping that removing the last vestige of sugar and crap will perk me up.  I am getting up at 5am and going to Curves for a work out every weekday morning (and some Saturdays, although not at 5am).  I'm also wearing a pedometer and moving as much as possible throughout the day.  I need to start making sure I'm in bed by 9 (that's hard!).

I feel like my cortisol levels are already falling and I know this will help with the weight and with the infertility. 

On another note, after a rest cycle (month off), I started back on the fertility drugs today.  UGH.  This could make the cravings more difficult to deal with.

Diet FAIL

I had a bad couple of days.   Seriously... BAD.  My daughters had First Communion and my son had a birthday... that all added up to a lot of cake in the house.

Funny thing is... on day one, I didn't do terribly.  I had one small slice of the cake.  By day two, just knowing that cake was in my house was reason enough for me to eat it... and eat it I did... I didn't crave it, after a few bites I even felt sick... but I kept eating it.

By end of day three... I was SICK.  I kid you not... hanging out in the bathroom sick.

I felt so crummy that I also skipped two days at the gym, which added to my feeling worse.  I made bad choices (having a bagel thin for breakfast instead of eggs and healthy fat), that left me feeling hungry and that led to mindless eating.

I threw the cakes out... if they aren't here, I can't eat them.  Too bad it took me three days of feeling like crap to do that! 

I'm switching off calorie and fat counting for two weeks.  Instead I am eating whole (clean, natural) foods, limited grains, and lots of protein. Pre morning workout, I had a cup of yogurt with berries. For breakfast today I enjoyed, 1 egg cooked omelet style + 1 cup of cooked gf oats w/ sliced strawberries, 1 TBS of palm sugar and 2 Tbs of whole milk.   Lunch will be a grilled chicken breast, zucchini, mushrooms, and salad.  Afternoon snack will be 2 hardboiled egg whites + a sliced apple and dinner will be a repeat of lunch. 

The combination of high quality proteins with limited grains should help fuel my body and help ensure I am burning fat and not muscle at the gym.

Oh, yeah... the gym.  I joined Curves.  This week I only made it there 4x's.  My goal is 6x's/week, since I made myself sick this week, I lost 2 workouts.  So far, I am liking it... the circuit makes sense in my world.  I'm still walking a lot and maintaining all my normal activities, so this should help burn faster and tone up as the weight is coming off.

I didn't gain any weight during my 3 day binge... I held steady at 15lbs lost.